One way or the other, I've been on a emotional roller-coaster whole of this week. Here are a few of them which I quickly share with u.....
Awe: The fact that I survived 9 yrs of married life. The fact that I have 2 kids. Just cant get over the fact that they are already 7 & 4 yrs old. And so many other facts connected with this fact...
Annoyance: The maid caught a cold & fever but acts like she’s got pneumonia. Took her to the doc & got her the required medicines. The fever is gone but she just lies curled up on her bed throughout & only gets up to wolf down the food that I serve at her bedside. Get your butt out woman, it’s just a cold, dammit.
Sad: My grand uncle(90 yrs old) passed away 2 days back. Why do I 'feel’ so much for this old man? He was a priest who conducted both my baptism & my marriage. An important man in the church level & we(ie all of us related to him) were always given some ‘weight’ bcoz of our connection with him. Yes I know it sounds sooo prosaic but we were proud to be associated with him.
Terror: Naina my 4 yr old got up from sleep 3 nights back & came to us looking like something out of a horror movie…….she had blood dripping from her face & the front of her night clothes were soaked in blood. It turned out to be a nosebleed. It happened twice again the next day....we panicked, took her to the nearest 5 star hospital. A consultation with the paediatrician, 2 blood tests later the results were out....it was just a simple case of nose bleed, nothing to worry........huh, they shd have paid me.....I told them that, first. Oh well, atleast we are sure now.
Apathy: First the kids were sick, then the maid fell sick. Now its my turn. I’m so tired but going about doing all the work[please note: the maid still hasn’t got up from her bed].
Amazement: The living room floor was a mess. Toys, books, bits of paper scattered all around. I decide to clean it up. I told Naina my intentions & asked her to pick up the bits of paper lying on the floor. Then I got a call. I come back to the room after 10 minutes & find the floor spic & span. My darling 4 yr old knew I was not well, cleans up the entire room by herself. “I did it for you, Mama??? Nice????” Tears stung my eyes…..lost for words I simply hugged her.
Mortified: My neighbour has left some of her precious plants in my house coz she had to go on vacation. Its been 2 months now & she'll be back any day. All these days they were perfectly ok, thriving infact. Just last week I noticed one of the plants slowly fading away, the leaves are withering away one by one, for no reason. I've been desperately trying to resuscitate it back to life. How ever will I show my face to her...not to mention the plant?
Frustration: Nikita my 7 yr old is waking up every night bcoz she is not happy about sleeping alone in her bed at night. Well, She’s not alone in the room…....Naina sleeps on the top of the bunk bed & the maid sleeps in the same room. We suggested that the siblings sleep together but both are not interested. Nikita wants me to sleep beside her which I’m not agreeing to. We’ve placed pillows, soft toys, warm milk before sleeping, the works. She goes to sleep immediately after getting into bed but gets up almost every night after 12 & cries, sometimes lies awake till 2 pm. If anybody has any suggestions, please let me know…its been 1 month now & I’m at my wits end.
Happy: Delighted to note that the comments for my last blog post hit the 30 mark[turned a blind eye to the fact 7-8 comments were made by me]
Gratitude: Thank God every night for all his blessings…..so grateful that I have a family to come home to, food on my table at mealtimes & a roof over my head.
p.s - And also dear Lord, just reminding u......the maid still hasnt got up from her bed.
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