I always attributed it to an incident which happened to me when I was small.
My aunt was cutting wood & my 3 yr old cousin was irritating her by simply crying for no reason. My aunt was patient for a while but got angry when there was no letting up from my cousin’ side. She took this huge piece of wood & advanced to beat her with it. I was sitting in the sidelines & was watching the proceedings with great interest. I was hoping my aunt would give the brat a sound whacking. When she started to beat her, I realized she meant business & jumped in to rescue my cousin. My aunt swung the wood upwards like a bat, bringing it down to connect my cousin’s backside, in the same instant I bent down to pull my cousin out of harms way and the piece of wood hit my eye….. and the world went black.
When I came to, I realized I couldn’t see with 1 eye. I still remember, as a remedy they brought some lactating mother’s breast milk, peeled open my swollen eyelid & poured droplets into my eye every 4 hrs for the next 2 days. My relatives(my parents were not around) also took me to a doc after a day(when they realized that my eyesight was not coming back by itself). The doc said there was nothing to worry as the eye was responding normally to all the tests he conducted. It was just shock & so prescribed bedrest.
My sight was back the 3rd morning & all was well. But it is after this incident I ‘feel’ I started seeing this distraction…….sometimes just a ant-sized something at the corner of my vision & sometimes a shadow.
But I find it strange that an incident that happened so long ago(more than 25 yrs back) can still be affecting me. So I’m wondering if any of you have experienced anything like this.
p.s- In case you r wondering whether I hold it against my aunt….. Nope. Not one bit. Infact I’ll always be grateful for the fact that she took the piece of wood to beat her daughter & not the axe she was cutting the wood with.